...is there anyone out there?

A bit of emotive writing..

2008-02-04T18:50:05Z

To the past you have given me,
to the heart I'd once had.

The blood you hath spillt for me,
the ideas inside my head.

The hate I now feel,
for you, the one I once loved

Can never make sense
For there is no more love

If in this act
Of selfish plight

You do see
That you are not right

Please, dear friend, tell me
What it is you do

To make it so that
I honestly hate you.

Hmm..

2007-08-10T01:15:35Z

For some reason, I feel extremely depressed today. Maybe it's just because I'm waiting for someone that I'd really like to talk to to get home, maybe it's not. For whatever reason it is, I feel like blogging.

I was discussing this with my friend Meghan earlier.. Is it bad for teenagers, (ex, in between 13 and 16 years of age) to be friends with people that are in their 20's?

We concluded no, since she and I both have close friends that are said age, but maybe we're a little biased.

And he's still not home.

Anyone feel like dropping me an IM?

I need cheering up.

My MSN's bleeding.rain@gmail.com

Message me?

brandofheroin @ 2007-06-14T00:48:00

2007-06-14T04:56:00Z

Well, I do feel better than my last entry. Though, Edward's death has taken alot out of me -- and I haven't really been the same since. Love ya, Ed! Miss you more than you could ever imagine!!! x.o;

My mother is in excruciating pain, and is going to the hospital for an endoscopy tomorrow to see if she needs surgery. Hoping she doesn't, and if she does, both of my parents are shipping me off to my grandparents' for about two weeks. Sigh, the joys of being a teenager.

Kinda hoping for Shakia to get online so we can go out tomorrow, even if we have to drag Brittany with us..

I really need to get my computer fixed. I have the parts, I just need to install them. Sorry you guys over at Gotei, I'll be back as soon as I can..

Though.. does anyone else find it ironic that my best friend dies about a month after my second-cousin's stepdad? I've been to two funerals in the past two months... I think that's pretty messed up. And what else is weird is the fact that my friend, Shakia's grandmother passed away in early May..

I think that Death is out to get us, de gozaru..

Rant. Holy.. Hell...

2007-05-29T21:26:35Z

Is it just me, or are most of the people in the world assholes?

Like this one kid who always tries to hit me when I'm walking to and from school, though I'm almost positive it's because I'm white and she's not. Not meaning that as a rascist comment, btw.

But I find it funny that everyone who is an asshole is also a moron. Has anyone else noticed the trend? I mean, one of my friends told me that this other kid that hates me always goes around telling people I've killed myself if I'm sick, or on vacation. 'Tis weird, isn't it?

And seeing as I'm a teenager, I probably don't have a proper view on the world yet, as my mother likes to tell me. However, I do feel that everyone in the world is prejudice in at least one way. I'm prejudice against those who are prejudice. But on a lighter note....

I have been officially nominated to be Poet of the Year for 2007, and to be inducted as an International Poet and Honored Member of the International Society of Poets. I think I almost had a seizure when I read that damn letter.

...But then, to the dark note again. It's on the SAME DAMN WEEKEND as Otakon, the induction ceremony. I don't know what's more important to me, doing something I've been planning for a hellova long time, or go to something that could easily make or break my future.

I really, really, REALLY wanna go to the poetry conference. But it's in Vegas. But I REALLY wanna go to Otakon, and I can ride the train up there.... WHAT DO I DO?! >_<;;

And since I -know- Shakia will read this.... What do you think is more important... Otakon, or the Poetry Conference? Since I really would like your input too -- seeing as if I go to the conference, you don't go to Otakon.

Someone pick for me, please!! >_<;;